Thanks for the advice. I have tried my best to give her space. It's really hard to not ask for a chance when she says 'were done'. I guess it's really tough to be just an 'observer'. Somehow I know that if I 'detached' it would be best, but seems so risky. In my heart, I really dont believe this is what she truly wants. She seems very scared of it. I have told her it's up to her to figure her out. What's hard to understand for me, is how do you begin to repair if youre apart all the time? How can she realize changes in me if I'm not visible or if we dont talk? I know I have read it on here a thousand times that it happens. When its your own situation, its hard to comprehend. For some reason to me, I think if she tried, took the wall down a little, and had an open mind about us enjoying each other, it would turn quickly. Of course this is my opinion and you can see I am really struggling applying how she feels. It's hard to believe I guess.
We are still close as friends. I think this is the best chance for our survival. If we spent some time together and had a little fun/understanding, she could love me again rather quickly. But, I know she's not interested in that right now. She's so bent up that she has felt this way for so long, that it cant be right to be with me. It could have been awhile, but I bet it's much shorter than she'd admit.
