Get me on a smoother ride....need advice - part 3

[SueS]

Good morning-

Well, H got home last night and we had a good dinner. At one point I could see his frustration with D3 and I. D3 because she wouldn't go to bed......me....just because I didn't have the right information for him. He wasn't real rude, just frustrated. There was a second that I almost blurted out......I know you're not 100% happy here.......you're free to go if you want, but then I caught myself.

I put on my pink nightie. Even if nothing was going to happen, damn it, I wanted to feel good about myself. H started things, but D3 couldn't sleep & kept interrupting. H finally just rolled over and went to sleep. We were intimate this morning, but it just felt strange.....like he was there physically, but nothing else.

It's gloomy here today and I'm just feeling low and angry again. I want to call OW so badly and just tell her to stay away. I want to call OW's H and tell him what's going on. I want to go to their house and say that I know what's going on. I know I can't do that though.

I am not sure what to do or how to feel right now. I'm numb again today. I really don't want to be at work.

When do you have any type of R talk again? How soon?

Have a good day.

SueS