I know what you mean about the CS. Thing is you have a counseling session right here. I have found that reading and posting has helped me cope a whole lot more. I guess that is 1 little part of getting a life.
Why can't you be like this all the time. Its right there. I can almost see that was the way you were when you were dating.
Stop beating yourself up it was not that bad. Let me beat you up. There is nothing you could say here that is going to get a rise out of me. It does get a rise out of me when you post things that you have done. I know these things are not you. I saw it almost right away. Obviously I was not clear about it in a manner that you understood but I think you are catching on.
This is gonna sound weird. Me being who I am when you write something here I read it then I post back to you. There is no "emotion" involved in it at all. Don't take that the wrong way. I care about how you do. It is just a honest (brutal) take on what I see.
Use the new tools. Don't pick up the old ones because they feel better in your hands. The new ones fit the situation better and have more power. You will be much more efficient and get the job done faster with the new ones. Sell the old ones. Hell give them away. Just stop using them.
I will go out on a limb and say if what you wrote last about coffee day is true. That was the biggest step you have made in a long time. My C once told me there is nothing wrong with saying what you feel. What he meant was as long as you say whats in your heart you can't go wrong. There has to be no emotion in it at all. It HAS to come from your heart. The other person may not like it or it may hit them wrong but if it is from the heart that is you. Its the you that they are trying to build a relationship with (whatever that may be). Don't you want to put your best out there for all to see?
Have a great day Littlebitlost.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
