Well last Friday I had a melt down yet again. I was really doing good and a lot of things really piled up at one time. I guess since I fell so hard months ago I am not as strong as I used to be. I had a uncle dying in the hopsital last week, work had problems, a paper due I could not find time for, 2 little girls telling me they hate me and I am stupid every few minutes, thoughts of the OW with H, AND expecting D papers to be sent to me everyday. Well today is my birthday and he actually told me Happy Birthday this morning when I met him with the girls. Granted the girls got out of the car chattering about it...so he really had no choice but hey it was nice to hear. Today I am 30 and I had so many goals when I hit 30 and none of them are working out. My latest goal was to be going on with my life and liking what I looked at in the mirror. I have to find a way to let go of the hurt, angriness, and jealously of the OW. Any ideas?
