RJ, I used to have that unflappable desire for MrsGGB, but it has evaporated. That scares me a bit and I miss it. However, in other respects, not having it has allowed me to start seeing myself a little different and start seeking my happiness in my own pursuits rather than in MrsGGB. I think the fear is mostly because I am into uncharted territory. I haven't a clue where this is going to lead. The flip side is that she doesn't seem to be too bothered by my not initiating and that is creating a chasm in our R that frankly I don't feel much like doing anything about at the moment, and she doesn't seem to want to do anything about it either. Not a good sign I guess.
