Get me on a smoother ride....need advice - part 3

[SueS]

Yoyo-

Thanks for turning my morning around. I know you're right. This morning was so nice just laying there with him. We haven't done that in a long time.

When I'd asked if he'd continue later tonight and he said yes, he said.....well, depends on whether or not my QB has a good night. I said, oh, so if he does, you'll continue, if he doesn't......? He said....I might not be in the mood. I just smiled and said.....that's what you think. He just smiled and laughed.

I was mad at my H last night, but now I'm starting to doubt whether or not he saw OW. I was sure he had, but other things don't add up to him being with her. Everything I could see showed that he was telling the truth. Guess I'm looking for anything & everything right now.

I want more than anything to hear that ring tone go off when we're together. To see how he'd explain things.

I guess I just have to realize that I probably have a long road ahead of me. The last A was nearly 8 months. I've read and been told by counselors that most A's last 6-8 months. This one has been on for about 4 months. I know I'll stick it out, but it just hurts my heart to think that I might have to go through this for a lot longer.

SueS