I guess the real problem I'm having is maintaining my PMA. The fighting, the trust issues, the insecurity, those were all things I could control in me, all things I could work on. This separation issue is something completely outside of my control and I feel helpless. I don't see how this could possibly work and I feel like I'm lying to myself thinking that it will. And the positive things she still says that used to provide hope to me no longer do; I hear them more as platitudes or gestures of a friend now. This is the lowest I've felt since she told me she wanted a D two months ago.
