Well he did not show up or call this whole weekend. This is the 5th weekend in a row that he has not called or seen our S at all. I was home for most of the weekend too. I decided it was not worth him being upset with me and our S is really missing his Daddy right now. He is starting to get very confusd by all of this. He was at the house all day Friday when we were not here and left a note saying he paid bills and would give me my money on Monday so right there I should have known he would not be popping in but for the life of me I can not figure out what he is doing. Not physically but mentally. I know I should not be trying to figure it all out but it is so hard for me.
Do you think he is going to deliver the blow when I come home next week? I went over the in-laws on Saturday to deliver some plants she ordered from our S and they did not even know we were still going to Florida. They did not mention the S and neither did I but I do not think they have a clue of what is happening so he is not even talking to them. I am very worried about him. What in the world is he doing? He seems so hurt still and confused and it is killing me that I can not help him.
We have been S for 6 weeks now and I know that is not long but it feels like forever to me. How do you do it when it is months and months and months? What about the holidays? I think I am just having a down day since we are leaving tomorrow but I have been having all of these painful thoughts all weekend and thinking that he is just not telling me yet. How do you deal with the down days? What can I do to get myself out of this?
Well I am off to finish packing and will be back on later to see if there are any responses on what I should do my last day home. I know that once I hit Florida though I am going to try to forget about all of this and just have a great time with my S. We have the whole trip planned out and he is so excited. This is going to be one of the greatest weeks of my life.
