Honestly, lost, I sense through your posts that you still do need him. It may not be quite as bad as it was, but I agree with FG that your neediness comes across in your posts. We all go through it, I think, so it is perfectly normal to feel that way. However, take steps to stop feeling that way. "Fake it 'til you make it" is a cliche saying around here, but it is an absolutely useful strategy, esp in getting from "needing" to "wanting". Keep "acting as if" you don't need him until you get to the point where you actually don't. Easier said than done, but do what you can to weather the storm and get to a point where you're perfectly comfortable and content with OR without him.
