Read your post. I suck at communicating I want people to get it on their own. You are showing him the "You's" I told you that you were.
I, ME, Moi get that you don't need him. You have made that perfectly clear. He thinks you "NEED" it. You still can't breathe when he is around. You have written it down. Not litterally but I saw it. I don't know you. I could see it 30 posts ago. Now I am the source of your frustration/anger.
"IT" All the stuff you have pointed out. Pain, Emotion, Distance, Hurt, Anger... All that stuff.
He wants you and your family. Not the way it used to be. He is scared of the old you he sees. Do I really have to spell it out for you? I would be scared of the old you to. This stuff is hard by the way. It is really hard for me to type this out. I half the time don't know where it comes from. I can't walk you thru it. As much as I wish I could I can't.
You have not lost anything. You have said you changed. Let the changes shine. He will see them.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
