new here and really worried

[Forrest Gump]

Oh I like it. The real you comes shining through.

And Lo and behold The Role Reversal. You remember me telling you "I need someone" won't work for ya? I told you people can't change who they are. You gave it one hell of a try. You learned something.

Keep reading.

Don't stop on my next comment.

Sad thing is you could have learned just as much staying in your marriage. You did not have the tools to do it. No one taught you this crap in school. No one told you what it was really gonna be like. You made the decision to leave.

Now that I have brought you down a little bit more. I am ready to build you up. Its gonna be blunt.

WTF up. Stop blaming yourself for where you are at. You did what you thought you needed to do. Take this emotion and channel it into picking yourself up. I told you he was seeing both of the "You's". I am still showing my wife the both of the "Me's" Just stop it. I am not gonna feel sorry for you (that comes from my perspective on things) but I am gonna tell you. STOP What you are doing Right now!!! He learnt well. He read the books. He watched the movie. Trust me he still feels "IT". I would almost bet money that he is feeling it right now this very second. He heard what you said. He knows what you are feeling. He is walking away with his Big screen and his Surround Sound, And His New House. I will say it again WTF up.

I am gonna give you a little bit of something to distract you.

It involves timing. You and me both suck at it.

Electricty flows at 60 hertz. When you need constant power you buy a generator. Rich people put that generator on a switch that does it all for them. Power goes out. Generator starts. Switch comes on. Power back on. The interesting part to me is when the power comes back on. The switch can't just switch. It has to "Get in Sync" with the power that is coming in. If for some reason the power from the power company is coming in at 60.5 hertz. Guess what the generator will do. It will run until it runs out of fuel. It will NEVER switch over.

We are out of sync. If we run out of gas what will happen? Cool thing about people is they don't need fuel. We just have to find a way to get "In Sync"