Your anxiety is amplified in your post. Just from experience, I know this is the first emotion that you must learn to control if you ever expect to feel better. The only way to do that is to "detach" and so far, you have not been able to do that.
Your giving your H to much power over you. You need to break that cycle or it's going to break you. It's really that simple.
I hope you can learn to do this so that you can begin to see the possibilities before you.
Tom
"It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare." -Mark Twain
