I'm still doing it

[mkultra]

It is a difficult decision to restrict access to the primary residence. I did and I have not regretted it once. I know I was going to have to end acting as if though if he no longer came to the home that was once ours. But it has been a blessing. This is now my private residence and my haven. I do not hace access to where he sleeps, or his mail, or his computer. He has been underground. Will it bring him home. probably not. Who knows. Does he miss our home? I have no idea. Jury says no most likely. Sometimes I do get jealous of Morgan's sitch, how her H still comes over an dputs the kids to bed and there is semblance of a home life that is appealing to the family, we miss out on that good stuff. I do remember my H waiting for me to get out of the shower and watching TV with him, sitting around. we do not have that. i guess you still do to a point. It just felt right to tell him I felt uncomfortable with him here. If he was not going to really be here. and come home.