Get me on a smoother ride....need advice - part 3

[SueS]

Thanks Kali-

I'm hoping it's not the case either. I'm just getting more and more angry about this whole thing. I think it was Trying that asked me if my H had seen anger from me the first time he had an A. I don't recall showing anger. I think I'm angry because he's doing this again.......which just proves to me that he's the weaker one because he's not strong enough to come to me when there are problems. I'm also angry that D3 is involved this time. That burns me beyond belief.

I can't believe that we were gone the whole weekend, drove 5 1/2 hrs (partly in rain) and H hasn't had the common decency to even call once today and check to see how D3 is doing or if we made it home okay. Not once! I'm angry because when we walked in tonight, she ran around looking for him and then started to cry because he wasn't here. I'm angry because she later came up to me and just laid in my arms and said....mommy, I'm hungry and I really just want my daddy here.

Just because I haven't called him with an emergency (not that he'd answer anyway) about D3 doesn't mean he shouldn't feel obligated to check on her. Damn I'm mad.

My mom once told me that although she knew that my H loved D3 very much, she still felt like D3 and I hold H back....that he can't do everything he truly wants because of us. I had an instant of hate in my heart for her saying that, but sometimes I feel like she's right. I think there's part of him that wants this type of life and part that just wants to let go.

I need to check on D3. Might be back.

SueS