Thanks, all, root and lwb, for the 2x4's and the hugs. They're all greatly appreciated.
<observation> Things are really weird today. I feel in limbo (that's to be expected I guess), but I at least have the S's to keep me occupied.
One thing odd happened this morning when W called to talk to our S's before starting her day. I have been methodically avoiding conversation with W since yesterday morning, giving my S's the phone as soon as she calls. The most I say to her is something about how the boys are and have been doing and then I wish her a good day or good night and hang up. Keeping it sweet by keeping it very short. Well, this morning when I took the phone back from my S's after talking with W, she quickly interjected something quick enough before I could change the subject.
Me: <taking the phone back from S2> Okay, well, I hope you... W: Oh, I think I have come down with the same stuff the boys have had -- if I don't feel any better, I probably won't be going out of town to the seminar. <sniffle> Me: ...I'm sorry you don't feel well. I hope you have a good day. Be careful today. Good bye. W: Good bye.
Oddly, I felt somewhat ambivalent. I certainly don't want her to go. But I also don't want her to hold it against me if she doesn't either. Part of me wonders if she is trying to find some excuse not to go -- but I don't think that necessarily means it is favorable to me. The only reason she wouldn't, that I can think of other than being really and truly ill, would be as an attempt to throw me off. (You have to realize that it really takes a lot for my W to get sick, let alone sick enough to keep her at home from something she wants to do.)
I really don't know what to think, but then she hasn't yet bailed out of her romantic getaway just yet either.
