H: I know. I can't do this either. I can't go without love and affection and my biggest problem is that it took this situation to make you change. I know you will go back to being who you were before and complacent about giving me attention. M: You always want to blame me but it takes two to get to this place and I'm not going back to that person whether I'm with you or someone else. I'm just not.
Wow, one need only paraphrase this convo very slightly, change H for W, and it would represent a recurring exchange between my W and I. She just cannot get past the fact that I have changed and am making a solemn vow between God and myself to ever revert -- and she she acts perturbed because it took this situation to trigger my change (at least that is the only thing she is willing to attribute my change to.) As such, she refuses to believe that I won't revert back to my "old ways".
She refuses to trust me, when she is the one who has demonstrated (and continues to demonstrate) a glaring lack of trustworthiness.
