PS, I have been thinking of you the past few days. My H is way out of town ( Calif.) at a conference, and I decided to put a brake on the thoughts that he was covorting with another woman. I want to enjoy the space without letting my mind wander, and that is what I am doing. It has been so calm here...my kids have been awesome, and I am getting back my " epaceful spirit." When I speak to my H on the phone, he sounds teenager-like; he's off exploring San Fran, he's off to a meeting, he's at the gym, he's all over the place,lol. And here I am, steady and organized, feeling that I am where I should be. I am having some anxiety about his return.
I'm at a stage ahead of you, in that we have done a lot of repair work and OW is out of the picture, yet the fears are still there, esp. during an out of town escape ( oops, I mean conference). And when my H reposrts back to me with that adolescent tone to him, it's downright scary. I have to accept that we are two very different people, and hopefully we can help to balance each other in a loving, committed way. I will tell you, though, that there is a part of me that enjoys being alone.
Anyway, thanks for letting me vent on your thread. I think you're doing good.
