Need Help/ Suggestions - Part 2

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It does make sense to me, I am only trying to concern myself with what I can control. I am wanting to change for me as well as my S. She can make the decisions on her own of whether or not to continue this M.

I have done a lot to get us into this sitch and she has done a lot to escalate the sitch, as well. As she left on to go to the river I told my son that I loved him. i mouthed the words to her as well as she returned them. There is still something there, on what level it is going to be only God knows. All I can do is make the changes in my life and move forward for me.

More and more, everyday, I am trying to put this in God's hands. Only he truly knows our plans and I am trying to be comfortable with that. In teh meantime, I want to make the changes necessary to be a good father, friend, and hopefully a husband. Your words have truth and the major reason I am staying in this is because I still love my W. I also want to be able to look my S in the eye if the question ever comes up on why we split and I want to be comfortable telling him that although I had a lot to do in the D, I also did everything I could to try and save it...But only God know if that day will come.