Actually lately I talk only "as if". We had a short conversation yesterday and I was talking about putting plastic on windows as winter will be coming and talking about checking to see if corn burner still works. H didn't say anything but I really wonder what he was thinking as if we D we will probably have to sell the place.
He really doesn't say anything about the future. Well, he lets crap out about selling out, or leaving out of state. When he does I say nothing. Partly because don't want to go there, partly because don't know what to say anyway.
What I am questioning is I'm afraid that one of these times he's going to ask me "what are you doing"? Like why am I still initiating and having sex w/ him, or why am I being so nice to him, or why am I just hanging out with him?
Do you know what I mean? If he asks do I tell him I am waiting for him to return? Do I tell him I am waiting for this MLC to pass and for him to come home?
M41 H42 D17 Adopted N14 M22 T24 "Bomb" 4/07 Sep 8/07 Admitted OW 11/07(only to me) OW back 12/4/07 PA on off thru 7/08 says done w/OW but not coming home 8/08 D final 7/09 Moving on and up!!
