I think H's the ultimate manipulator. He's got me on this string like a puppet. He acts like he cares and says ILY all the time just to suck me in. Then when I get riled up, he turns on me yelling and screaming and blaming. It's totally jacked up!
What I've really come to realize over the past few months is that I started to ignore him in our marriage because he was not even coming close to meeting MY needs. Instead of telling him, I expected him to read my mind. When he didn't, I got pissed. So, there is our cycle. And, if I was "like that", I would've been the one having the affair.
The other thing I've really come to realize now that I've started asking him to meet those specific needs is that he's remarkably selfish (obviously!) and I really DON't think he is willing to meet my needs. I guess that's where the other part of my frustration lies.. Besides the ow.. he really only cares about ME meeting HIS needs. Not vice versa.
I guess those things are leading me down the frustration/sadness path straight to D...
