I had posted a profile a while back, just to get some PMA up. Got 156 responses. But you are right, it wasn't what I wanted.
But I want something. I wanted H to be that, but he can't/won't now. I miss having that special someone. It will be a year in a month and a half. I miss knowing that I am in someone's heart. I miss having someone thinking about me. I miss checking in about the mundane stuff that makes up life, just talking or even sitting quietly.
I don't know when I would start dating, but a few people have told me that it would help me get over him.
And I am afraid that is the only work I have left to do at this point.
