Need Help/ Suggestions - Part 2

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I am gonig to talk to someone tomorrow at church about C'ing. I have tried numerous referrals with no success.

In all honesty. The only emotion I feel towards my wife right now is love. I want to love her and tell her I am sorry for everything I have done to get us to this point. Unfortunately the words are meaningless right now, she does not trust me.

I can only take action to help me get through this. Hopefully with me getting help I can show her how much I want her to be a part of my life.

At least I have my son, who has not left my side other than a nap since he has come home. I honestly feel that if we were to split I could handle it. It would be the time away from my S that would be the hardest thing...

I am praying every day, a few times a day for God to do his will. I can not understand, nor will I probably ever understand, why I am in this situation but I have faith that we will reconcile and it will be the best it has ever been...