I'm sorry that you are going through this. I have been right where you are ! It's still very early days for you ...this will take a LONG time....you need to find your OWN purpose in life, not just distractions....find a hobby, make new friends, do some new activities...do you have kids? Stay involved with them ...
It's all about getting a life ! GAL ! You will get the hang of it...it takes time, take it slow...one step at a time, one minute at a time !
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus