I don't know why we think they are worth all of this...is it our history? Or something that OT asked me:

What do you feel it says about YOU if you get a D? Is that why we hang on so long?

I think for me, that might be part of the answer. But I also know that I love him, that I have always loved him.

Maybe I don't love him enough, if I am having such a hard time letting him go to find his own happiness...