I know that most would probably not agree with the way I am handling my sitch. And probably you may be right. But I don't know how else to do this. I feel if I completely "distance" or go "dark". He will just accept and go on. He's too much of a go with the flo kind of guy. I don't know if he was faced with having to fight for me that he would. I also believe that a lot of our problems in the marriage is him feeling left out, unimportant, taken advantage of, neglected. Lack of me taking the initiative for sex was a big issue also. So I can't get rid of the thought that maybe I need to show him just how important he is to me. That I am willing to fight for him. That I have changed in alot of ways.
Hell I don't know, maybe I am just fooling myself. Maybe I am just alowing him to "play the game". To string me along, to "cake eat". I really don't know.
All I know is that I want this man in my life and I have to do something.
I totally get this. I am terrified that my moving away has just made it so he will just give up. I do know that I had to distance myself to save myself because everytime he wanted I was in bed with him but he ALWAYS left me that same night to spend the entire night with her.
I am not saying you are right or wrong because honestly I am not sure if what I did is right or wrong. Be careful and protect yourself. I will be thinking of you.
M 32 H 39 SS 15, SD 12, S11, S9, D7, D6, D4 E/A 02/06 WAS 03/06 RH 05/06 On 07/07 told me he wants to leave again. On 08/11/07 Walked out again.
People say "When God closes a door he opens a window." They forget to tell you "It is hell in the hallway!"
