hi morgan. Yes, the conversations that are normal do cut deep sometimes, because although we don't know what they are thinking about these talks, but we know we are thinking "Sigh, this is good" or "Step in the right direction". Only to have them leave again. Tonight was an occasion. H got home as I was putting down out for the girls. They ended up playing SO well together (call Guiness!) and H and I stayed at the table and talked about light stuff. I went to go running and boom, I come home and he is off to go out and to his dad's. What was I thinking? See, that is probably why I cornered him to talk because I was thrown off and needed answers.
I was fine with H being gone last week and oddly fine again tonight. That is sad too, isn't it? I know what you mean, here you are, deep into a separation, and while you are getting through day by day (and feeling pretty good most of the time), its like, where does this lead? And like you said awhile back "I'm not ready I'm not ready". That's so true.
I am rambling, but wanted you to know I was thinking about you.
