She now only sees me as her baby-sitter and bill-payer. I want to ask her does she even have a conscious anymore. How can she possibly sleep at night? How can she look at herself in the mirror? How can she face God anymore? Does she really pray anymore? Does she really even try to listen to what He has to say to her?
Chane she/her to he/him and I could have written this. Oh and add that I feel 'cake eaten' too, because he is around me when he wants to be, and has the freedom to run when he is angry at me. Lovely. I sit here, with my sleeping kids, and H is out at bars. Yup, sucker.
I am so sorry you found that bit of information out. That is a PMA killer for sure. You are the rock, the better person, and actually the better parent at the moment. I am sure the shock of what she is doing will set in at some point. Turn that anger and betrayal into a great moments with your kids.
I remember this summer H was 'working' on me, trying to convince me to let him go away with his friends from the bar (all male). I found out later he was trying to plan a get away with OW. Just the thought of that makes me ill. I can't imagine knowing it was going on. I am so sorry.
