donna, my plan for that day is to be as dark as night, and to do something special with my kids after they get out of school. they are the blessings from the marriage, I figure who better to spend the day with.
do you think I'm better off doing something on my own for the whole day? just going off and doing my own thing? I know I am going to be emotional on that day. I will have the morning to myself, but wondering if I should have my parents or someone come down and spend the day with the kids and keep myself to myself.
the kayaking sounds fun, btw never done it, think I'm going to add it to my list of things I'd like to try next summer.
H is due in a couple of hours. for some reason I'm nervous about him coming over. nervous he's going to be ready to have "the talk." I know he doesn't want me to hurt any more than I have to, and after our talk on tuesday, I wouldn't be surprised if putting me out of my misery will be his plan.
I know I need to stop thinking about this stuff. I'm not worked up about it, just wondering.
still planning to head out to do some boot shopping. will try to be upbeat and happy while I do see him. no more moping.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
mirror mirror on the wall, who has the weirdest husband of them all?
yep, that would be me.
when he got here, the kids ran out to see him, and i grabbed my purse to head out. he immediately started in on me about a smudge on D3s face...um, dude, relax, its not life or death. kind of made me realize he was in a mood, though.
I went boot shopping (success! at least with a pair for jeans...not exactly what I wanted, but close enough). got home right as he was finishing up putting them to bed, so I went up and kissed the kids then headed back downstairs.
H immediately started in. not yelling, just weird. He wanted to know where his coffee pot was. um, I put it away in a cabinet. he wanted to know why I did. well, buddy, first off, I don't drink coffee, and its just sitting out here. also put the blender away, since I haven't used it in a long time. he then said he didn't know if I was just being dramatic. lol.
to be fair, the first time I kicked him out, I did put his coffee pot down in the basement. I didn't want any reminder of the man at all. but this time, I had just left it sitting there. and sitting there. and sitting there. I needed some space on that counter for something the other day so pulled it down and tucked it away. no biggie.
I did smile a little at the dramatic statement, and told him it was safe, that I didn't destroy it or treat it meanly in any way. (yeah, I can be a little snarky at times. sue me). I was just about to ask if he wanted to take it with him when my sister called. he immediately checked the caller id...thinking its some guy, I'm guessing. but at least the call chased him out of the house.
anyway, that's that. seriously, what a weird guy.
Not much else going on tonight. hope everyone is good. I don't see him again until saturday.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
He is soooo funny/odd/weird/lost/foggy!!! What to do with these men????
I think dark all day might help for the anniversary. You could come back later in the afternoon (after dinner, post baths) so you can soak up your babies and put them to bed. That's just me though. Part of me would want to be with them most of the day too. UGH Sorry, I suck. lol
you know, its funny, lwb, about my anniversary. part of why I don't want someone to come watch them is because I don't want to see anyone that day. I don't. I don't want the looks of pity, or the words of support, from my parents or my mil (the only people who would watch them for the day). I know that sounds weird, because they would only have the best of intentions, but I honestly think I will be dark to everyone that day.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
Weird. LOL. You crack me up!!!! Um, weird. It is like dealing with a drugged out teenager or OCD control freak. Geez, the mysterious mind of Foghead! Don't you just want to take a walk around his mind with your new boots and kick out some of that fog build up? It's like, I know he is in there somewhere! Off to Zappos!
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
LOL. You all crack me up. I guess your H is paying attention to the house after all. I can't believe he flipped out about the coffee. If that's what they're like, then I'm in big trouble tomorrow. I changed everything. I had to. I had to make it MY home, MY safe place. Can't wait to see what your H does next...
Think I'll get some fog kicking boots too, btw.
Me29 H33 D9 months S2 S9(previous R) Sep 8-19-07 I file 11-5-07 H home (Retro) 2-15-08 "Today is the tomorrow of yesterday." -- S9
For my anniversary weekend, I went away to LI to visit my friend from college. She had to work during the day, but we hung out at night. It was Memorial Day weekend; H went "away," too, and the kids stayed with their grandparents. I was completely dark, and it was really hard that night (it was the same weird weather as the night we met--heat lightning flashing all over the sky like fireworks).
I didn't want to be around the kids that day, because I thought it would be way too emotional.
early morning today...the kids were up way too early, and I went to bed way too late. was just talking to H and told him I made it thru the daily show for the first time in a while. ken burns was on, so we talked a bit about The War. he has been watching a little of it. which is good, I guess. good in the way that he hasn't completely changed, still likes some of the same things, anyway. wonder if OW is a geek for history like h and I are?
so okay conversation. no eggshells, nothing personal.
enough about him. not sure what today will bring. same old-same old this morning...take S5 to school, then off to the gym for me. not sure what we'll do this afternoon. if the weather holds, I may take the kids to the farm to see the animals. if the rain starts up again, maybe we'll just make a pie or something like that. do some fall crafts or the like. nothing big planned tonight since I have them. oooh...need to go to target. see, the excitement in my life never ends, does it? but its good; I'm concentrating on me and my kids and going about my life.
hope everyone has a good day!
Last edited by morgan; 09/28/0712:10 PM.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
hi morgan, I think 'normal' conversation is good, its a way of connecting, a way of reminding him that he loved that part about you. I know the OW's H told me when my H would talk to her about mundane things (from the recorded calls), that OW would easily lose interest and try to sway the talk back to sex/secrets/sneaking around. BARF O RAMA
So, if your H's OW does this, I am sure that's missing from his life. Its not that he is using you to fill that void, but I bet he is remembering that, yeah, that was nice.
Yes, it does feel weird having "normal" convos every now and then. I wish I could be that positive. I think I am wearing my resentment on my sleeve too much.
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
