I'm still doing it

[nephartiti]

Thanks Dom and Donna.

After my last post, I decided to send H a happy pic of the kids. He called 2 minutes later and asked if he could still stop by. I didn't mention that he was late or question him. Told him "sure".

It took him about five minutes to get here. He told me several times how good I look, how I lost weight, my hair looks nice, etc. Then he told me I should buy some new shoes (my staple converse are worn but no where near dead). I swear, this man keeps telling me to buy things for myself and the kids but he's already spent all the money! I told him these were fine and I will when finances are a little better (I said it lightly). I asked him if he ever got his LASIK eye surgery. He said he did yesterday and had a follow up today (his excuse for being late). I asked if I could look at his eye. I leaned in real close and took a good long look. I could have kissed him, but I didn't of course. Anyway, then I backed up and said, "You can't even tell". I took every opportunity to bend over. My jeans are low and when I lean over, my shirt lifts a little to expose my back and, sometimes, my sexy panties

Then, I was on my way out. I asked what time he needed me back. One hour. I made a face and said I was planning on having a little more time. He narrowed his eyes and asked if I was going to the gym. I looked at him like he was absurd, although this was my original plan. "Have you been going to the gym?" I just laughed and told him I'd be back at 11:15 (he agreed to an extra 15 minutes). Then I LEANED over again to kiss the kids goodbye and walked out.

I went to Jamba Juice and met my SIL at babies R us. You can't do too much in an hour.

When I got home I gave S2 a big hug. D was sleeping. H was a little more reserved. Asked how it went. I was happy and said "good". I just started going about my business. The baby woke up. H got her. I noticed the strawberries and sour cream (H's favorite) were not touched. He didn't stay long. He said he was leaving and I neutrally said bye.

I did peek in the van before I came in. Looks pretty much the same as last time except there was a vanilla diet Dr P and a Starbucks coffee cup (H doesn't drink either).

After he left, I checked my PC history, which I deleted before I left. He was snooping. He erased one of S9's drawings. Jerk! and a pic SIL found online of OW. Actually, I thought I had already erased that. It must have been in the recycle bin. He also found a file folder I made for an old "friend" I have been e-mailing. He's a writer, so I have half a dozen poems in a folder in my docs. He opened 2 of them. So, MK and Homer, I hope you're right because now he'll think I'm dating.

Now, I have a confession. I know this is bad, but I set up a tape recorder while I was gone. I know. I know. This is what I heard. It is very muffled but he called OW twice. The first time was w/in 15 minutes after I left and he says "Hi, how are you. I'm still here. Yeah, I know. She left. Well, she said she just had some things to do. (OW talks a lot). I know I know. Yeah. Yeah, i know it's just. You know whatOK, I will call..." I couldn't make anything else out. I think he might of said ILY, but I couldn't really hear. Call number 2:"Hi. Are you going to call me back or. OK. yeah.. yeah, I know. Well there was a picture. Yeah I deleted it. You don't have to do anything." I don't know if he came her to see the kids or just see what dirt I have on them. Sounds like she was asking a lot of questions. H set up a web cam here too. Yeah, like that's staying up. I think I'll vomit now.

It does sound like he's under some pressure from OW. She doesn't really want him here. I guess I am a threat in some ways, but not really because he wouldn't even eat the food I made and he didn't make any physical contact this time either. He's such a good actor. He plays us both so well... barf