lost in the land of confusion 6 and holding

[Dr LOve]

Hey Saffie,

ya got mail.

Husband,

yoyo

Thanks for everything. I need all the help I can get. This weekend I feel will be the end of one chapter and the start of the next.

Got ta go will be back later

[fightingirish]

H,

You are doing great... I know this is incredibly hard for you, you are making the right choice. You need to move forward at this point. I hope she is responsive and have a GREAT DATE!!

tal

[saffie]

Hey husband, sent you a music email. Did ya like it?

If you email me back don't reply to the address on that email. That's the account I share with MY husband.

Saffie

[Dr LOve]

Ok

[saffie]

That was a small ok. I just don't check that email account anymore. Didn't have a very good spam filter on it and each day I used to get about 100 useless emails - mostly offering me penis enlargements and I had to filter through it to find the two that I actually wanted to read from someone I knew. LOL

saffie

[Sara]

The two penises you wanted? That's a lot of work.

[saffie]

I know. lol

My H always said it was my name that attracted those sorts of emails? WTH

I think he must have been feeling a bit inferior with OW. Hah!!

Saffie

[Dr LOve]

Yes thank you Kali,

“Well yes retail therapy has been something I have been doing too. I think that was what you were trying Manuel? Today my retail therapy consisted of buying pretty smelling candles and cleaning supplies."

I have a new problem I am dealing with right now.

1. The new light are pulling too much power so I keep blowing fuses. I need to add a relay switch.

2. My W told me to go buy a printer for my lap top because she is moving the other one in her new "office"
(Got a great deal)

My problem is I am feeling guilty buying this stuff knowing I am sending the letter on Tuesday. It's like I am pretending everything is ok and then I am going to "drop the bomb"
Everyone that has read my letter. I am not really asking her to make a decision right? I am just stating my feelings right?
I start thinking why I shaking things up but then I am think about the pictures and remember why I am doing this. They are no longer hurting me they are inspiring me.
Am I going crazy?
I always used to say if you don't think something is right and you don't do anything about it you are condoning it. If I don’t do anything about my sitch then I am saying “it's ok" right?

I need a drink
Know where I can find some rum?

Husband

[Kali]

i think you need to stop thinking of it as dropping the bomb. you are not telling her you want a D or a S. You are just putting your feelings out there and telling her that the roommate thing is not working anymore, and just putting the ball in her court.

I think you just need to breathe and just wait till Tuesday, live your life.

[Sara]

I agree with Kali. I don't think you are asking her for anything in particular in the letter. Perhaps permission to hug and kiss, even make love. If you think the letter is too strong you can change it. Maybe do 2 letters, a softer one first, and then depending on the reaction a stronger one next. The problem with letting the communication die is that it is so hard to start it up again.

Hi Kali! Scented candles sound nice.