Well, I sort of know what that's like. I went though it too. My husband had me served last year in March and then in August started hinting at reconciliation (I think he wanted me to ask for it, but I was hesitant!), and he called his lawyer to stop it in September when he learned we had the first court date in October.

So how are you doing? Sometimes it helps to know you are not alone in this. I've actually met quite a few people who have either stopped the divorce before it was final or eventually remarried their ex-spouses.

There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.