All hope is lost/help

[cat03]

yes, the T told him he has to work extra hard at commucating, he knows it but even he acknowledges that he has a hard time implementing what the T talks about.

Fuming again, just got off the phone, he acted all fine and dandy and blamed his blowing up at me because he is probation at work. That is such crap I can see right through that, a lame attempt at evading responsability for his actions, I kept telling him how bad he made me feel and he said he didn't think it was a big deal, was distracted doing something else while talking to me and threw a patetic "sorry?" at me.

I went with his T for the first session, and you know what? you have a good suggestion, I should go with him on the next one, she did say that from time to time she'd like to talk with both of us. I'll go next week.

I've tried a few times, to hold his hand, like I did after the first A and S, but this time I just don't have it in me, he's even more "human" than that time, but I prob also need more time. I do crave often to have him near me, but I wish he'd try too (ok, so I'm sounding like a person to whom I'd say 'go slow, try it now and then) aRGGGH!!!

ok, I need to detach and calm down, that time of the month is somewhat aways, though I feel extra emotional right now.

Phew! thanks for listening to my rantings honey, as you see, we all go mad a bit from time to time, heck, I've earned it! LoL!