All hope is lost/help

[cat03]

Yeah, not feeling the best right now, yesterday's mess plus this morning's talk with H doesn't leave me leaping for joy. His T told him to be brutally honest (i'm sure, part of an attemp to have him stop bottling up his feelings and learn to tell the truth) so, he's read that as being a brute while being honest. Yesterday's and today's fiasco have to do with the fact that he wants to talk his mind --fine with me-- but he is vicious about it, perhaps in an attempt to make his point across and in the past he never thought he could.

I'm pretty mad at him right now, out and out told him to go to h*ll, it's a big no-no, I know, but his verbal abuse has got to stop, I refuse to just sit there and take it. I don't want to talk to him right now, I'm sure I'll feel better later and we'll both cool down, then I might feel like talking again.

You are funny I'm no were near wise, I've been burned twice so I sort of know the road, by no means it makes it easier but I the road is familiar to me now.

My children are under 10, the older one can sense the tension when we argue, I try so hard not to argue with them around.

I have read that book, the 5 LL, and even gave it to read to my H before our separation, he got something out of it, but refused to fill "my tank" in a way I wanted to. For me, acts of love are a biggie since I feel I do everything plus hold a full time job, he prefered to give me gifts (easier) that to do stuff around the house.
At the time, his LL was physical touch, since we are sleeping appart andhe's getting over the A, we can't do anything in that department.

Hope you have a good dinner and a great weekend, I'll also have fun w/my kids, my H works both weekends and nights so I won't see him but for a few hrs.