I know the your illness is real. I also know that your diet, self care, exercise etc... are factors in how you will do with any chronic illness. Do you take good care of yourself? What would it take for you to do that? These are questions I am asking myself since this last pregnancy brought with it a diagnosis of Graves disease j- although I am currently ok and so are my thyroid hormones I have become very aware of how important I am in that equation and that only I can be responsible for taking care of myself.
Good for you for not contacting OM. You do understand that in a way he was just a psychological pawn... Like it or not you used him to deal with unmet needs, psychological pain and a myriad of insecurities. Maybe he is a great guy. Doesn't matter. If you had an honest parting of the ways with your H then met him - different story but since you didn't the R with him was about you not him and you are better off to clean up your own house before embarking on any R. If you try as hard as you can in this M, learn and understand yourself better and it just doesn't work you are then free to explore a R. Not to point out the obvious but when you get to feeling weak and missing him remember it isn't him you are missing - it is you!
