I'm still doing it

[nephartiti]

Well, it's 8:02 AM here in Cali. He hasn't called like he said he would and he isn't here like he said he would be. I sure am glad I didn't go all out on breakfast, but I feel like an idiot sitting here waiting for him. I bet she talked him into staying for her first period conference. Worse yet, maybe he decided to on his own. I shouldn't have told him the kids would probably still be sleeping.

I feel like such an idiot. This sure does remind me of those days before I KNEW there was an OW. She already has him 24/7. Can't she let him come see his kids once a week without her?

I was planning on going to the cardio salsa class but now I'm thinking the kickboxing may be more appropriate. If he shows up, that is.

Great, now my SIL is on the phone telling me about a lady she met at the gas station who's husband left her for another teacher. Wth! Anyway, they divorced. She tried to play "nice" and he took her for everything. Is this some kind of sign? They had four kids. He left when their baby was 2 months old. Now he doesn't even see his kids. I really don't want to hear this right now. Why is she even awake right now? She usually sleeps til noon. When A broke up he tried to get back, but she was done. I guess it's been a few years now.

Great! Now I'm a mess. It's probably best if he doesn't come now. I'm not going to call him. If he stands his kids up today, I'm going so dark and I'm taking the kids with me. How dare he mess with them like this. At least they are young and don't realize they are being disrespected.

Now my house is clean so I don't even know what to do with this energy. OK OK OK OK. It's OK. Just calm down, Michelle (yes my name is Michelle).