Well today i'm afraid to say I feel a bit heavy of heart b/c of last night.
I was meant to be going out with my friend who let me down. I assumed (wrongly that H would stay in with me) but he didn't he put on his shoes and said he was off out and he went, he didn't say where he was going he just said 'see you later, bye'. I wished him a good evening. Both D's were at work and phoned to see if I could collect them at 10.15pm. They told me that H had said he was off to the gym and then the cinema so they had to walk home and he would have known that (it's not far and safe)
I'm upset b/c 1) he didn't tell me where he was going and 2) I felt I couldn't ask and 3)it makes me feel even more like we are co-habitors. He has since called me this morning and he said he didn't have a plan when he went out other than going to the gym. I asked if in future he would tell me as I was a little upset, not about him going out but theat he didn't tell me where he was going.
I have read my book on the 5 LL. I was surprised to learn that mine was 'words of affirmation' I thought it was 'quality time', then hugging and affection.... The thing is I have no idea what H's LL is!!! How bad is that??? I THINK it may be 'acts of love' or 'gifts'. His way of an apology was always to clean or cook and he has always been the spender, mainly at B'days/Xmas etc but always impulsive. I'm the one who is careful with money.
I get the impression he is feeling much more himself, i know he's watching his weight and has started to excercise more, but I just feel that last night was a 2 finger at me. I have to say i'm gutted. I will try and have a PMA today, I know we have time together for a family lunch out tomorrow to look forward to, but it seems everything i'm doing is not having an effect all. Or is it?
I'm sorry this is a panicking self pity party this morning.
Sorry I am working on me for the most, but I was just thrown by
Look forward to your optimisism (((XD)))
ps Grace - keep on asking H out and show him what a great time you are having and how popular and friendly you are. (( ))
P/A confirmed 5/03/08
03/08 H said affair over, I dont think it is, h still doesn't want marriage
T: 13 M: 8 D:20 & 17 from Previous M S: 8 & 4 BS: May 07 ILYBNILWY S: 13/10/07
