ok finally an update from Kali. H and I had a long overdue talk. We are still heading to divorce or legal seperation, still discussing. I am at ease with this choice. I know there was alot of disconnect in our marriage, and alot of wrong choices on both our parts and we both agree. I told my H that I have not given up 100% but that will go forth with what he chooses.
This all came out by my revelation that he has been snooping additionally on my after he figured out (via this board) that i was still snooping on him. So we both are in a no snooping agreement and have decided to finally be upfront and honest and I feel so much better for it.
I will still be here, and right now am no longer focusing on anyone buy myself and my kids.
I am going to counseling twice a week to deal with my own personal issues.
I did a really stupid thing a week ago that I am not proud of but feel I am safe to say it here. I attempted suicide and landed myself in the hospital for a few days. I did not want to really go, but just got to a place that I never want to go again. Between the counseling, the love of my family and friends, and my children I know that I will never go there again.
Thanks everyone for their well wishes and support and I am sorry for the delay in updating.
