I can relate to that notaclue. I feel sometimes too, because of my lack of dating before I met my W, that I hold on to the notion that I love her still because she is familiar, is the mother of my two kids, and has been in most of my adult life.
The idea that I have to do this again sucks, beacuse now I have to understand that I am going to blend families, meet someone who will have a whole other set of issues to deal with...yada yada..
I sorry for being pessimistic...just can't see the light at the other end yet...working on that slowly.
