Ok...so it has taken me four hours to finally get the internet up and rrunning. How frustrated am I? Grrrrr!
So as I speak my H is packing up our house and he is moving tomorrow to 'his' new house. This makes me very sad. We built a beautiful home in a really nice neighbourhood and I sort of feel like the sale of the house is the last thing we had. It was, really. He bought a little house in a not so nice area of town and he takes possession tomorrow. I cant bear to even think about it.
He was with a friend tonite when he dropped liam to me at the school and usually when it comes to the house...he hugs me because he knows how upset it makes me. NOT TONITE...I'm wondering if that was because his friend was there and he is trying to be tough. I dont know what he has told them.
I am going to ottawa tomorrow for the weekend so that should keep me distracted. When I moved out he went to Niagara Falls with the kids. I guess thats what you do eh? Feels a bit like running away but whatever. It hurts to think about him having a housewarming and that I know I wont be invited. I guess really all of this hurts.
It is crummy because I have been feeling so positive the last couple of days. Dont' know if i'm up or down sometimes. Crappy roller coaster...I WANT OFF!!!
M: 34 H: 32 M: almost 6 years S: 2 yrs D: 4 yrs Together: 8 Known him: 15 years I walked away: April 1st Wanted back: May 1st!!!!!
