don't drive yourself crazy asking, because I did the same thing. And, it only made me ill. You cannot make sense of it for him. Trust me when I tell you, just let him go for now and think positive things for yourself because that is all you can control right now. I know the pain you feel; I know it very well. Believe what I say. Sending you a hug and prayers tonight. Get some sleep and put your mind to rest for tonight, ok?
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
