What is reasonable and what is not?

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Just wanted to put some stuff down and talk about the week. Weekdays seem to be better than weekends. Exh is attentive and really on his game. Weekends come and he starts to have a few beers and that's when the crap starts.

This weekend is a bbq fundraiser for a 4H club that both of our kids are in. The dad's pretty much do the day and there is coolers of beer and they all drink. Last year (we were separated) I understand that exh got so drunk he had to be driven home.

My mind starts to play games with me.....who is he going to call....is he going to want to go out with his buddies? Is he going to feel weak and call OW? None of this stuff I have control over.

This week I have been GAL. Not on purpose really....just been really busy with my kids and sports. He had his kids last night and finally he text messaged me around 9:30 asking how my evening was. I told him great....how was his? He said 'long and tiring'. He is exhausted by his children. They are actually great kids, but for some reason its a real struggle for him. I did say I listened to the baby's heartbeat and it was awesome. He said 'thanks for calling'. Hey, he has choices to live seprately and not be 100% trustworthy. He has choices to put us all back together once and for all in a healthy way, but he isn't. I do have to say I can see effort and change in him in a big way. In the way he acts towards me and all, but the ego calls to OW put a damper on my saftey feelings towards him.