It stinks that my M keeps progressing towards D. I have accepted that and it is out of my hands. I don't think I will ever understand why this has come about. Last year this time my W and I were discussing having another baby....what a difference a year makes. My focus will continue to be on my girls and my own well being. BTW....D5 has a soccer game tonight.
NCB,
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They really need you, and some day they will be able to thank you themselves for your steadfastness in this time of turmoil.
This is my hope. I can only control myself and not my W actions. I hope as they get older they see me and my actions as an example for their own lives. My girls are so young there will be a few years before they realize what I have and am going to continue doing for them.
AndyV,
Give my W some space and getting away for the weekends has been really good for my soul. Like you said I actually get a peaceful nights sleep. As for the D I am trying to leave it with the L's, but my W wants to keep negotiating. Ugghhhh.....
It feels good to finally get back into my work again. Glad to hear that the same has happened for you.
FIB,
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One of the two of you in your M...has integrity. Don't give it up.
You are right and I do not plan on doing anything to compromise it. Stooping to her level would be all to easy.....But I could not live with myself doing the things that she has done. It still amazes me that my W has gone down this destructive road. But like you said I can only control myself and have the choose of an honorable man.
Hope,
As always thanks for stopping by.
All,
Thanks for you support through this mess. I am not at the end yet, but the support from the people on this board is priceless to me - Thanks.
Journaling: Last weekend was fun even though I did not see my girls. I went out with my good friends Saturday night and then watched football most of the day again with them on Sunday.
A couple of things did happen since I last posted. First was on Sunday. My W called clearly frustrated with all that is going on and mentioned that she tried calling a couple from our church to see if we can sit down with them to talk about our D. After the blow out at the house this was the agreed upon action if we needed to talk D. Well our conversation was short and non confrontational. Then the next day I hear that there was another blow out at the house and elders from my church had to come over. I not to sure where that came from since I was not home. It does make me wonder if my W had a self inflicted meltdown....Who knows... Secondly, D5 was telling about her ear hurting. Then she says that it did not hurt until mommy yelled at her. I asked why mommy yelled at her. She then to me that "mommy was crying because you will not let her leave and move into her new house. That is why mommy yelled". So now it seems that my wife is painting me as the bad guy to my DD's. I haven't confronted her on this and am not sure if I should. Do I bring this up, most likly causing an argument. Or do I keep what I am doing and let my daughters see the truth over time. Not sure at this point.
Tonight I have my girls and D5 has another soccer game. She is having a blast playing soccer, which is fun to watch. This weekend is going to be fun. Saturday my girls and I are going to my friends DD1 birthday. Then Sunday I am going up to Detroit with my girls to go to the Bears game. So another eventful weekend is planned for my girls and I.
