Nobody is abusing you. Nobody feels like they are 'better than you'. Nobody is kicking you.
You're feeling like that because you're confidence is down.
When you read posts think about 'hanging with the guys' and one of them saying these things with a laughing and an 'are you crazy?' tone in their voice.
And you responding with "Ahhhh, you're right! Let's have another beer" or "No way man, I did x,y,z and SHE was the one who ...".
E-mail and Board posts can't carry the 'tone' or 'attitude' that being in the same room can.
You give US too much power. We're just a bunch of guys like you.