I do truly appreciate the support. I envy some people on this board for being further along in the process than I am. But I also feel for those who are where I am or who just found out about things. I just have a hard time understanding why there are so many of us that have to hurt like this.
I just ask myself why. I guess I'm in that stage right now. Why me? Why now? Why can't I get....as my thread says.....on a smoother ride?
I'm just tired. ......but I'll be damned if I'm going to give up. I still have a lot of fight left in me. Maybe too much at some times because I want to punch OW really, really hard!! Don't get me wrong........I'm by no means a violent person, but I'm just angry. Like others on this board (lwb comes to mind) OW is someone that I know......someone that I've spent time around.......someone who looked me in the face, talked to me, smiled at me.....etc. and the whole time knew damn well what was going on between her & my H. And I was clueless to it all!! I just keep going over and over in my mind things that I might have said to her.
SueS
ME: 42, H: 42, D6 Together: 18 yrs. Married: 15 yrs. Attended Retrouvaille - December 2009 Status: Working on it day by day
......but I'll be damned if I'm going to give up. I still have a lot of fight left in me. Maybe too much at some times because I want to punch OW really, really hard!! Don't get me wrong........I'm by no means a violent person, but I'm just angry. Like others on this board (lwb comes to mind) OW is someone that I know......someone that I've spent time around.......someone who looked me in the face, talked to me, smiled at me.....etc. and the whole time knew damn well what was going on between her & my H. And I was clueless to it all!! I just keep going over and over in my mind things that I might have said to her.
