Now I've done it... again

[nephartiti]

MK, it has been hard. I feel like all my kids are being neglected. They are not, really, but I know I am not giving all the attention I would be if I was not dealing with all of this. S2 nurses a little. I am starting to limit it. I give him a little, and then we cuddle. Both sleep with me.

I don't feel like H has really bonded with our D. He started pulling away with the EA right after she was born. It all progressed very quickly from phone calls to him disappearing more and more. D does not get held nearly as much as S2 used to. Because I am juggling, she ends up in the swing or something a lot more than I would like.

H is not providing support in his absence and he wasn't the last few months he was technically here. He was too caught up in what he was doing.

S2 was full on attachment and he is very smart. He was talking early too. We can only do the best we can, I guess.