The Good, the Bad, and the Funny 4

[mkultra]

Journaling:

It is 6AM in California. That is a reasonable time for me to wake up, I guess. I cab still remember the nights when I was up at 3AM and then 5AM. I am sure a lot of you can relate to that, so yes it does get better and your brain does wrap itself around the infidelity and lets it go eventually, little by little.

The thing is I have never seen it or heard it I have only seen bills and seen a car parked and heard rumours and caught an email.

I have not seen it with mine own eyes and so I started to panic about that eventuality this morning because I did see his car parked across the street from my new job at the bar. That MEANS SHE WORKS at the coffee shop across the street form where I work!!!! OMG.

The woman who introduced me to my H happened upon the affair three months ago and has never told me until this week after she was sure he told me himself. She said she became violently ill and sobbed uncontrollably as if the wind got knocked out of her. She has known us since we were 14 and considers him a brother. She said it actually worsened her depression and views on men!

I began thinking how dare he park across the street from my job waiting to give her a ride to where they sleep. how dare he rub that in my face. So I did a 180. I sounded weak and vulnerable and came out of the dark to make a simple request that I am sure his cruel heart will deny, just like whenn he refused to call this OP his "girlfriend". He is so loyal to her!.