Whapu, just wanted to stop back in an see how you were doing. Lots going on for sure. The child in the bed thing makes me nuts as well, except when W decides to not come home or sleeps on the couch. Although since we got the really cool "lightning mcqueen pillow" it was alot easier to keep him in bed. Repetition is the mother of learning on that one I suppose. I started thinking like you on the sobriety issue, I got to the point of why and started drinking again. Not near as much, more social, but then after a really bad day with W I got to the point of blacking out and decided to give it another try. This time without the NA beer substitute. I certainly like myself much better when I am not using booze to drowned my sorrows. Good luck brother, keep the faith, positives will get you to where you want to be. Ditto on the grateful list thing, it is easy to forget the good during all this crap.