H says he does not want to dredge up past and does not want to go any more. He was angry (C favors me as she is F) and is not happy about the next session. But frankly, I feel better so I do not care if it upsets him.
H is to watch D1.5 in his place now. I don't think he is too happy about that (it means that he will have to buy food in consideration of her and he will have to shop for her), but I feel as if having some space to myself will be good. After I said that, H lashed out saying he wanted D. I mentioned that H's whole running off was in an "I'll show YOU" kind of way. And I think that is the case.
He was the one who cleaned and he used to complain about me constantly. Now it's like he purposely leaves it as messy as possible (again, "I'll show YOU") when he cares for D1.5. So I don't want him here any more. I don't want to come home and have to clean up after him. I also don't want to take D1.5 up to his apartment. It's mostly because I will be in a hurry to get to work--but it's also because I don't want to see his girlfriend's things there or run into her.
I am going to tell H that I have been afraid to be honest w/him regarding my feelings for some time because H has been so angry at the world and has had such dramatic reactions.
M: 16 years Bomb 4/07 OW 20s long gone Divorced 11/09 I remarried New Guy Cooperative r w/X regarding D
