Well it is Wednesday and still nothing from H. In a way it's okay because afraid of his reaction to my stunt last Friday. In a way not. I again had hopes that maybe, just maybe he might be coming around. I guess the weekend will tell more.

I spent the day today with MIL and SIL. SIL is very sick so took MIL to see her. It was so just like old times. H did call me to see how his sister was feeling. Talk for a short bit. But that was all.

Everyones(his family) wishes as I do that H would pull his head out of his a** and come home. It was so good to feel close to the family again. I don't know how I will ever go on if I can't be a part of them one day. They meen the absolute world to me and H is very possibly going to take them away.

It was a good day but now I feel so down and discouraged. I miss him so much. I miss my life.

M41
H42
D17
Adopted N14
M22 T24
"Bomb" 4/07
Sep 8/07
Admitted OW 11/07(only to me)
OW back 12/4/07
PA on off thru 7/08
says done w/OW but not coming home 8/08
D final 7/09
Moving on and up!!