I just can't faqthom my birthday without his always special, over the top celebration for me. Part of me wants him to hit bottom, and hit it hard - SOON - so that he can begin his journey back. I will be sending him an email in the next few days - after my birthday, though, so it doesn;t appear I am fishing fo him to say something - as I am moving offices - and phone numbers at work. There is no cell service there, so in reality, he would have no way of getting me during the day in an emergency. It will be business-like, of course. I hope it may open up the avenue for him to MAYBE respond, or at least acknowledge me.....
